Dress - Handmade by me, Kimono - ASOS Curve,
Bag - Shop in Rome, Shoes - Topshop (old)
I'm so deeply unhappy with these photo's for so many different reasons that I'm amazed I even managed to put together this blog post. I'm my own worst critic, but these photo's just aren't up to my standard but I felt like I needed to post as it's been so long since my last. I always mention how little time I've had to blog recently, and I'm jealous of other bloggers who find time and motivation to be able to blog regularly. When I do get spare time to take pictures, I find that either no one is about to take the photo's, the weather is bad, or I'm really not in the mood but there's this pressure weighing down on me with a voice in the back of my head saying 'if you don't take them now, then when?', and then time floats by and the pressure increases. I could've taken pictures yesterday as it was the first free day I've had in weeks, but all I wanted to do was relax and have fun with my friends, and I ended up feeling guilty for not taking pictures. Today the weather was good so my Mum dragged me out, and it was a good excuse to wear this dress which I made weeks and weeks ago and had planned to wear on our little holiday to the coast, but instead it rained the whole time. We took some pictures today but I was immediately just not feeling it. There's not always a specific reason that I can pinpoint my unhappiness, but I just was so unhappy about everything. Lighting, styling, my hair, location, my mood... and more and more. I get this feeling a lot, and it really effects my blogging to the point where I feel like quitting - after all, this is just a hobby and if it's not fun anymore, then what's the point? You're probably thinking I'm being silly and overacting, but not blogging often enough is something that plays on my mind a lot as I don't like to do anything half-heartedly, or let people (my readers) down. I realise that no one else is putting the pressure on me, it's just me doing it to myself.
Apart from just finding time, another thing that has bothered me lately has been the lack of clothes that I like on the high street, and the selection is minimal. I realise that new plus size lines are starting up all the time but I feel like it hasn't necessarily always been a positive thing. It's ended up with loads of lazy collections, some with about 10 items of clothing with no design elements which they will then charge £50 for, or others have just selected the most boring stuff from their main range and sized it up. Companies have seen a way to cash in on the plus size community, not really caring about what the customer wants or what is missing from the industry, and in reality if they did their research properly they would end up with even more money. And loads of companies wonder why their plus size lines aren't selling?! So even though there's technically more selection, I feel that in 2014 where we've come so far, I have less actual options to choose from. And as an out of work fashion design graduate, who is returning to uni for a postgrad course in two weeks (but I'll talk about that another time), the lack of effort these plus size companies put in really frustrate me. I'm jumping up and down here, begging to design clothes that plus size women want, but no one will give me the opportunity. That's why I feel so passionately about starting up my own business, because I can't rely on the industry to do what I personally think is staring them in the face. But back to how this effects my blogging - I only blog about things that I want to share, because they're worth sharing. When I get a new dress, I instantly want to blog it and be like 'LOOK HOW PRETTY THIS DRESS IS'. But if the clothes don't inspire me, then my blogging enthusiasm goes. I've literally worn the same five dresses all Summer due to this problem, and also because of my lack of money, hence me rarely blogging, and even my usual favourite shops have let me down... which leads me back to this dress I recently made.
You may recognise the print of this dress as to make it I took apart a very old New Look Inspire dress that I had never worn due to it being a bit tight around the bust and way too short on the length. (and I'm only 5ft4, so I'm not sure what New Look were thinking - back to my earlier point of companies getting it wrong) I tried to sell the original dress the other month at the plus size market, thinking someone shorter than me might want it because the print is so lovely, but it didn't sell. So I decided to take it apart, chop it up, create a new dress design with some fabric I found on holiday and - hey ho, there we go! I'm really pleased with it, but like I said at the beginning - I don't think the pictures do it any justice. I'm hoping to make another dress in the same design but with different fabrics in the next two weeks before I leave for university. Anyway, I hope I haven't rambled too much - but please let me know your thoughts on plus size fashion at the moment? And also how do you fit blogging into your schedule, and stay motivated and inspired at the same time? Until next time,
p.s. I recently was interviewed by the lovely Leah for her new monthly 'top bloggers' segment that she has recently started, so go check it out!